2006

pdt

mon
jun
19

Hurray! I've been invited, out of the blue, to a Fourth of July party, over in Walnut Creek. That takes care of the friends problem. Meanwhile, back in the inside of me, I've been taking a stand for the youngest parts of me I can possible reach, to make some headway into understanding myself. Here I am, I can see now, contacting the flesh of me that's been buried since 1949, running around in the snow, back in Colorado Springs, racing inside and hiding behind, or underneath, the kitchen, back by the mops and water heater pipes. In 1949 I am three years old, and on other days am locked in a titanic battle with my mother over whether I'm going to clean up my playroom and the toys I like to play with all over the place! The story so far: She's put me in quite another room, a clean room, she calls it, and won't allow me into my playroom until I agree to make it as clean and uncluttered as the clean room.

I don't think so!

Of course, before all this can be settled, I've been yanked away to live in quite another house.

pm
12:50

Night-before-last's (Dream) I've been going back and forth through what has become a green tunnel, and now, as I wait outside the tunnel that's been blocked off by the police, for some reason, I simply go around the checkpoint before anyone has a chance to stop me, and make my way into the bright greenness. There's a football game on the other side!

People have been telling me there's no oxygen in the tunnel, and I pass someone on my way through who's clearly having trouble breathing, but the air seems fine enough to me! I'm quite sensitive to these things, and there's nothing wrong with this tunnel. And what about the football game? (Fin)

1:02

Last night's (First dream) Achilles is having trouble getting into his tree house, and no wonder! The back and sides of the box I made for him have crumbled away, and if he goes through to the other side, he'll fall into the tree's brambles. I try to teach him how to stay on this side only. (Fin)

(Second dream) I make my way across the swimming pool's multilevel cement terrace amid a bunch of little girls who keep marching around the place with no bathing suits on, on different tiers of the platform. I see their bare undersides no matter how I choose to go around or ignore them. (Fin)

(Third dream) The police claim they're no longer following me, so what's this green sedan parked by the edge of the highway? As I make the corner, skidding around to the right, off the gravel road, onto the asphalt, the green car takes off, too, in hot pursuit. There's a damned SUV out here, too, clearly part of the chase team. I've seen all this before! (Fin)

1:08