2010

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mar
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I have heavy eyelids today. Just as I awoke, I saw an entity inside myself come out of hiding. It simply appeared in the center of my chest-abdomen area as if suddenly thrust into a corral, from the right side. Its head was hanging slightly, almost drooping, and it appeared to have no arms, though I have the impression it's a fully formed entity ... just taking it easy for the moment.

Yesterday Isma circled me slowly out on her front lawn, while I grilled her with English vocabulary. I'd say a word from her list, such as "Hamper!" and she's have to say, "Hinder, or obstruct!" Earlier I drilled a Frisbee back and forth with her younger sister, Shamaila, and now that my attention was on Isma's homework, Shamaila taught her youngest brother Sa'ad, who turned five a day ago, how to ride a bicycle for the first time. There was a lot of surprise over there! "Enfranchise!" I said to Isma, still circling me. "To give voting rights!"

My dreams have been setting me up, I can see, and for the last month, they've been emanating from sensations in my stomach, which, as soon as I awaken in the morning, simply eats them! I find it very hard to remember dreams I've had for breakfast, and thoroughly digested, though shall give it a try.

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Last Night: (Dream) Virginia has some clothes and she's come into my room to try them on or something. The two of us are out of sight of everyone. The clothes are made of white linen. (Fin)

March 16 (Dream) The secret agent and I have commandeered a bus, and as we bring it around over the manhole cover again, he explains to me the importance of keeping my mouth shut. The two of us make our way up towards the driver's module and bring it to a stop. Just outside the window, a group of girls gaze in at us, one of them wanting to know what we're up to. (Fin)

March 15 (Dream) When I go over to my friend's house, I make sure to bring back one of his roommate's Black Led Zeppelin albums, which I leave on a stack of folders. My friend disappears with some others for a while. On our way out, with Beth, I make sure to follow the path we always take, stepping from one piece of the construction to another. (Fin)

pm nap (Dream) I'm not so sure I was ready for that! The race began without me even being ready! Never mind! I went tearing along the upper level freeway and headed straight for the finish line! I think this is working! Just as I reach the railroad tracks, I stop, of course, but the locomotive coming along had no idea I could stop short so easily, and crashes into a side spur. Well, that wasn't my fault! In my haste I lost both dogs and now I'm with a friend down one of the tunnels. We stop to rest, and wonder if we'll ever see my dogs again. I hope not! There's another couple nearby, and they've got a little dog, who comes over and sniffs around in our grassy nook area. "We're having a little dog action!" I tell my girlfriend. She tells me my dogs will probably show up when we least expect it. (Fin)

March 11 (Dream) Up on the third floor of the building I find a nice bar and settle down. The woman I'm with has some concerns about some book. (Fin)

(Dream) The mall corridor stretches out for at least a quarter mile. I'm taking some guy along with me to show him where I hang out. He and his friend were curious about the telephone I'm using, and I volunteered to go get my AT&T phone and bring it back to show him, for some reason. Anyway, we overshoot my place, and looking back, I'm not sure which aisle to go back on. These mall shops are so similar, and the corridors offer few clues as to where, exactly, we are. (Fin)

March 10 (Dream) The waiter gives me two twenty dollar bills, just out of the blue, and I take the two little boys with me around to a buffet table out on the porch. I give a five dollar bill to one boy, and a second five dollar bill to the second boy. Then, on my way out of the hotel, I give two ten dollar bills to the same waiter who gave me the original forty dollars. He's sitting with his friends back near the kitchen, and smiles happily when he sees me redistributing the money he gave me. (Fin)

(Dream) Climbing the hill to fill my order, I hear a sudden click in the dispatching machine, while simultaneously, discover the street I'm supposed to go down being cordoned off. They're still letting trucks through, I see, and maybe me. The dispatch display in my taxicab now says, "Go down the blocked street to the front of their house!" Unfortunately, this message has replaced the address I was supposed to go to. Never mind! I think I can do this on the fly, simply by gaining access to the street. I pull up to the traffic enforcement official setting down orange snow cones to block off the street. (Fin)

(Vision) I see a candle being lit (Fin) and feel a sudden flood of energy down my left leg, all the way to my toes.

March 9 (Dream) I'm wearing white pajamas and come back into the banquet. I'm served. No one seems to mind. (Fin)

March 6 (Dream) I'm on the ferry boat and the lady landlord has left for a moment. The bags packed down in the seat-back compartment just in front of me have to belong to the mysterious woman everyone's looking for. She suddenly shows up and starts removing her things. Damn! I'm all alone with her, and now she's taking off! I follow her back along the railroad tracks, which isn't easy, because as I watch, she shifts from brunette to blonde and back again in an effort to throw me off her scent. It's not working, because I have laser-sharp attention, and don't keep my eyes off her as she's shapeshifting. Finally, down near the end of the tracks, I board a train with her and am astonished to discover, underneath all that effort to elude detection, she's nothing but a ninety-year-old man! We become fast friends, somehow, and on my way down to his mansion, I discover that slightly down the sidewalk running alongside his house, there's a ramp which is ideal for catching a skier coming down the sidewalk, then shooting that skier up to an upper patio area, by their swimming pool. I point this out to my new friend, and he's wryly amused he'd never thought of it. In any event, I think he's preoccupied with the party we're all going to. A girl comes in and goes to some lengths to point out she's forgotten my name, and that in any event, she'd rather just call me whatever name she chooses. I do notice, as she's spinning her tale, she's never mentioned her name, which doesn't really matter, because she's already spinning off in some other direction. Some guy is preoccupied with both my age and my mustache, and because he's giving me a lot of warmth, I simply relax and go along with him, even as he has me lie on my back and allow someone to put some sort of foam on my mustache. You know, even if these devils are intent on trimming me, I can grow it back in a flash. A girl is lifting my legs as if she's going to change my diapers, which I'm so far beyond! These people are a hoot! Okay. They did it. They took off my mustache. (Fin)

March 4 (Dream) I'm decorating cake with one of my sisters, getting ready for the party. She disappears, and I realize I've got to throw my football over the partition, slightly beyond where she's apt to be. I throw the pass! Then I dart around and find her on the other side, simply going about her business decorating another part of the cakes with silver icing. I find myself with just ten or twenty cupcakes, all lined up perfectly on a side table covered with a white tablecloth. (Fin)

March 2 (Dream) I'm going over the letters in my name, "Richard.Ames.Hart," making sure they're spelled correctly, then moving over to the password. (Fin)

(Dream) I'm with a friend, who's helping me with my thick clump of change. "No problem!" I tell her, leafing through the fives, tens, and ones. Hmm. There's a hundred dollar bill mixed among the ones. I wonder if I should tell her. (Fin)

(Dream) The hill slopes up at some forty-five degrees, and as many times as I try to make my Jeep reach the top of the grade, it slides back to the bottom. This'll never work. I go around the building to another entrance, bringing my friend along, and show her another way we can get to the command center. "All you have to do is climb up onto this beam and walk along it, the length of the building, and you're there!" You can see some people sitting on the beam way in the distance, maybe blocking the way. This is no good. Some guy hops up on the beam and begins the precarious walk. You know what? This is too high for me. I'm not doing it! Now what on earth is that behind the beam? I go over and realize the architecture has been concealing a tunnel, actually inside the beam! People have been sitting on it, like it's a bleachers' seat, and all along it's a tunnel! I go around the corner in my grandmother's house where I should find an entrance to the tunnel halfway down the stairs. (Fin)

(Dream) I'm with my four animals, who are taking a swim in the deep waters of the lake. It makes sense that the two dogs and the cat would be able to swim around in there and make it back alright. I'm not so sure about the little fat animal. I don't even know what to call it! And already, I've lost track of it. Where could it be, down there, underneath the water? (Fin)

Feb 28th (Dream) Driving along the wide boulevard, I'm fascinated by how quickly the street name changes. You can tell by gazing sideways at the passing street signs, at increasingly erratic intervals. Approaching a mall, I inform a police officer about this, and for some reason, he decides not to give me a ticket after all. (Fin)

(Dream) Chris Daniels is packing up his stuff and moving to a new level. I try to stay out of the way. People are still going to his meetings, for some reason, and when I go over for a visit, discover Danny. She's still incredibly beautiful, so much so, it surprises me. I immediately back away and find a corner where I can duck away. I open a square invitation of some kind, and the four sides of the square all fold out to form a fivefold geometric cross. Just as I open it, an impression of beauty escapes from it, and see it's a memory of her dating someone else. I open another one, and the same thing happens: There's a sudden impression of beauty, then a memory of her with yet another guy. There's only one thing to do, and that's get away from her ... which seems to be drawing her back to me for some reason. (Fin)

Feb 27th (Dream) When I wake up, it's obvious the sun is shining outdoors, and down on the lawn, see one of my sisters pulling her bathing suit down slightly so she can get a better tan. I go back into my room to find my bathing suit, and by this time, my sister's come up to take a shower. I look down the hallway just as she heads into the shower, then call out to her. She comes back out into the hallway totally nude and comes down to my room to talk to me. (Fin)

Feb 26th (Dream) Our naval vessel is under attack! I order all the men to lie down on the deck as if they're dead, and they lie down with their arms and legs outstretched as if they're simply space suits out on the deck drying off. The reconnaissance airplane flies away. Oh, shit! We're being shelled. Artillery fire is coming in, just short. I order the engines to life, and full throttle, steering hard to port and we accelerate out of harm's way. (Fin)

(Dream) After drinking an entire keg of beer, I realize I want more! Unfortunately, some guy is tying up the cash machine, and I can't pay for what I've put away already! I ask the bartender if he can write me an IOU since he's gotten to know me a little and knows I'm good for it. He does. Damn! No one has ever written an IOU for me before, so this is a novel experience. In the head I bump into the guy who won't unfreeze the cash machine and make sure I keep my distance. (Fin)

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